Fox (Bodhi Beach Book 1) Read online

  By SM Lumetta

  Fox

  Copyright © 2017 S.M. Lumetta

  Kindle Edition

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without permission of the author—except reviewers, who may quote a brief passage in a review.

  Published by S.M. Lumetta

  www.smlumetta.com

  ISBN-13: 978-1-5323-3874-8

  Editorial: Janine Savage, The Write Divas

  Proofreading: Marla Esposito, Proofing Style

  Cover design: S.M. Lumetta

  Cover model: Christopher Mason,

  instagram.com/christophermason

  Photographed by: Collin Stark,

  www.collinstark.com

  Fonts used:

  Surfing Capital by The Branded Quotes

  Cup of Sea by Leonard Povasec, Leo Supply Co.

  Venti by Connary Fagan Type Design

  Printed in the United States by CreateSpace

  Also by SM Lumetta

  You Are Here

  And, as a co-author

  Felony Ever After

  For every one of my friends and family who have struggled with fertility or pregnancies in one way or another.

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Also by SM Lumetta

  Dedication

  1. The Diagnosis: “It’s menopause.”

  2. The Fallout

  3. The Plan?

  4. The Plan in Action

  5. The Foxy Nurse’s Birthday Party

  6. The Kombat-tle

  7. The Shopping Plan

  8. The Foxy Epiphany

  9. The Foxy Proposition

  10. The Foxy Terms

  11. The Kissing

  12. The Deed

  13. The Second Time

  14. The F#&!ing Pizza

  15. The Failure

  16. The “Big” Weekend Away

  17. The Benefits Agreement

  18. The Actual Surfing

  19. The Bonfire

  20. The Challenge at Willow Creek

  21. The Last Night

  22. The Accidental Reveal

  23. The Jealousy

  24. The Hangover

  25. The Hang Up

  26. The First Time We Got Married

  27. The Karaoke Showdown

  28. The Changing of the Tide

  29. The End of the Agreement

  30. The Amenable Hostess

  31. The Not-Quite-Mother-In-Law

  32. The Work Trip

  33. The Loss

  34. The Confrontation

  35. The Lowest Point

  36. The Truth

  37. The Real Deal

  38. The Way He Annoys Me

  39. The Wedding Proposition

  40. The Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  Laughing. All the laughing. Until Doctor Beaufort looks at me like I’ve cracked. I stop myself and swallow. “Wait, what do you mean, ‘it’s menopause’?”

  “Sophie, your symptoms and test results point to perimenopause. Your estrogen levels have been a little all over the place, and with your erratic cycle, it’s extremely likely that early menopause has begun.”

  I’m glad I’m not drinking or eating because I would have choked. Oh, scratch that—I’m choking on my own spit. It’s so great that I don’t even need to put anything in my mouth to choke.

  The studio audience in my head reacts on cue, complete with cheering and lewd gestures.

  “I’m sorry?” I ask, my throat on fire as I cough roughly. I sound like a veteran smoker. Or maybe even like I’ve moved past that into voice box territory.

  My doctor finally notices my insta-panic and waves her hands in front of her face. “That is to say it could be.”

  I gasp, hacking up a lung for good measure and in hoping I heard her wrong. “But… I’m twenty-eight.”

  This is where the audience supports my outrage with a sharp gasp followed by a dead silence.

  Doctor Beaufort smiles, her teeth blindingly white next to her dark skin, but it does not comfort me. “I’m aware of your age,” she says with humor. “But I’m pretty sure this is premature menopause. It can hit women as young as their early twenties, though it’s rare.”

  I stare at her, my mouth agape but still trying to form a word or two. All that comes out, though, is “buh buh buh… buhhh.”

  For all the erratic and weird symptoms for the past six, maybe eight months, I never even considered this a possibility. Ever since I dumped that life-suck Brett, I blamed everything—from cycle woes to crazy unusual mood swings and a bout or three of awful night sweats—on stress and the breakup. Though the first missed period caused a different kind of nightmare. Or as my best friend Nora put it, The Pregnancy Panic Heard ’Round the World.

  Dr. Beaufort is talking, but my brain is white noise. I’m forced to shake my head a bit to tune back in.

  “Twenty-eight is certainly not common either but it’s not unheard of,” she continues, oblivious to my dumbstruck noises—or maybe because of them. “And it’s not immediate. As you probably know, menopause itself is a process. It can take years to complete itself. So you may still have time to have a child if that’s in your life plan! Many women going through menopause have a ‘oops’ baby.”

  “Baby?” I ask, and I sound like I’ve never heard of them. I flash back to The Scare and for a quick second, wonder if that wouldn’t have been a blessing. Jesus, no. Then I’d be attached to Brett forever. I shudder. My credit score is still in the toilet because of him. That’s more than enough of a legacy and intrusion on my life.

  My resulting silence stretches out before the both of us, but not because I have nothing to say or ask. It’s mostly because I find that I cannot speak.

  “Sophie?” Dr. B begins, and I think she asks me a question, but it sounds like I’m underwater.

  I have sudden trouble focusing and feel my body sway. The room leans into a cartwheel and everything goes black.

  When I wake, I’m happy to find I did not, in fact, fall off the “spread and swipe” table after all. However, a nurse holds my legs up toward the ceiling. Dr. Beaufort hands me a paper bag.

  “I’m not hyperventilating, Dr. B,” I murmur, pushing the bag away. I sound drunk. Great. Maybe I had a stroke, too? That would be a tasty cherry on top of this shit sundae. “I choked and then I freaked out.”

  I’m well aware of my dramatic tendencies. At times. Occasionally. When it suits me.

  “You passed out,” she says simply, no judgment. “Do you feel light-headed?”

  I do a mental check. “I’m good.” Sitting up slowly and with assistance, I notice the nurse is my oldest friend in the world, Fox Monkhouse.

  “What the fuck?” I try to kick him, but it comes across like the death throes of an extremely long, uncoordinated fish. “I’m commando, Fox! Shouldn’t there be a female nurse in here?”

  The attempted kick seems even more foolish now. I pull my hospital gown tight in the back and slap my thighs together to hide my cooter.

  “Mr. Monkhouse was just outside when you fainted. And he has a master’s in nursing,” Dr. B adds, unaware that I’m familiar with his qualifications. Even so, that doesn’t mean I want him all up in my lady biz. “He’s a professional.”

  “Yeah, but a professional what is debatable,” I say.

  He breaks into a huge grin.

  Jerk. “What are you even doing here? You work at Shoreline!”

  Fox rubs the corner of his eye with his middle finger. “Same hospital network,” he says, faux professionalism oozing everywhere. “They needed a floater to
day.” He makes an incredibly immature face behind Dr. Beaufort’s back as I try desperately not to crack up at “floater.” His immaturity rubs off too often for my own good. A few instances of which flit through my mind. The facial expressions that result are likely horrifying. I’m glad I cannot see my face right now.

  “Are you all right, Sophie?” she asks, looking at me with concern. “I take it you and Fox are friends.”

  I fake a cough and clear my throat. “Fine. And yes, I guess you could say we’re friends.”

  Fox snorts, tucking a stray sun-kissed curl behind his ear. The rest of his shoulder-length blond hair is tied back. “I’ve known Sophie since we were… I’m not sure, five?”

  “Four,” I correct, just to be a bitch. He rolls his eyes, and I smile. “When my family moved in down the block, I hadn’t started preschool yet.”

  “Oh, right. We bonded over the ice-cream man.”

  “Rocket Pops.”

  “Ohh,” he moans, damn near orgasmically. Dr. Beaufort shoots him a look, but he’s not paying attention. “I loved those.”

  “It’s basically frozen sugar and food coloring,” Dr. B throws in her two cents. “It’s—”

  “Don’t crap on my childhood, Beaufort,” he snaps jokingly, but realizes his place with an “oh shit” expression. “I mean, yes, doctor. Sorry. Yes, of course. You are totally correct.”

  The idiot pauses to clear his throat. I catch Dr. B minutely shake her head in what I assume is exasperation. I completely understand where she’s coming from. After an awkward beat, he picks up where he left off.

  “Anyway, Sophie wouldn’t go to school unless I was in the same class. She needed me.”

  “He was held back,” I add. “Started preschool at seven.”

  Fox coughs, “Asshole!”

  Dr. B rolls her eyes before looking at me. “I stand corrected on the professionalism. Are you feeling okay?”

  “I’m good, Dr. B,” Fox says.

  “I’m okay,” I say at the same time. At least, I’m okay where the fainting is concerned. The rest is still pretty sketchy.

  “Good,” she says, eyeballing Fox with a sliver of a smile on her face. She pats me on the shoulder and tells me to get dressed. “We can chat more in my office before you go. Mr. Monkhouse, let the patient dress, please?”

  “I will,” he says with a nod. She smiles as she walks out.

  “Did you sleep with her? Or are you trying?” I ask him.

  “I don’t shit where I eat,” he says.

  “Oh, really?” My eyebrows jump for my hairline as my eyes drill into him my blatant disbelief.

  “She’s twenty years older than me!”

  I tilt my head, waiting. He’s holding out. He knows damn well he’s nailed a colleague or two well into their forties. Such as… “Rita?”

  His mouth drops open, his dual-colored eyes going wide. Thanks to his scrubs, the green one shifts to blue-green or turquoise like the ocean and the hazel one looks golden. I still marvel at how strange yet beautiful they are.

  “Wow, pulling out the stops,” he says. “Fine, I have cleaned up on the nurse aisle before, and a couple docs, but I’ve learned my lesson. It gets ugly.” He opens the door and stops. “Get dressed.”

  I wait for him to close the door behind him before I peel off the gown and put on my clothes.

  “Why’d you faint?” he asks when I get out into the hall. He’d clearly waited just outside.

  I lightly punch his arm, noting a slight sunburn on his nose. Someone went surfing this morning and forgot his sunblock. “Don’t you have actual work to do, stalker?”

  “Not at this very moment.” He looks around. “So what’s up? Are you okay?”

  “Low blood sugar,” I lie. It feels gross, especially given his sincerity. I never lie to my best friends. “Forgot to eat this morning.”

  “Forgetting to eat? That’s not like you.” Likely sensing my bullshit, he steps a little closer. “You’d tell me if something was wrong, wouldn’t you?”

  I’m warmed by his concern, but I’m not yet ready to discuss anything. Time to redirect.

  “Are you calling me fat, Monkhouse?” I like giving him shit. Not to mention, I’m quite comfortable in my own skin. At five foot nine, I’m pretty lanky with the exception of a bit of a bubble butt that popped out when I was in college.

  “Always, Porky.”

  An elderly woman walks by at that very moment. She stops to spit at him and expresses her extreme outrage on my behalf. “Horrible man! You want me to crush his man business?” she asks me, holding up her cane, which has flames painted on it.

  “Um,” I stammer. I pretend to think about it while Fox’s eyes grow wide.

  He purses his lips as if to say, “be serious!”

  I turn back to my savior. “That’s very tempting, thank you. But I’m okay.”

  “You’re sure?” Harley Quinn’s grandma doesn’t buy it, and is clearly looking to dole out a beatdown. Maybe she got bad news today, too.

  “Totally.” Leaning toward her, I cup a hand by my mouth to offer an aside. “I have it on excellent authority that his dangle isn’t exactly swinging in the breeze, if you know what I mean.”

  She nods knowingly and threatens Fox with her badass cane one more time before walking away.

  “Wow,” I say after she turns the corner. “That was like tenth grade all over again.”

  In high school, I struggled to keep on weight because my metabolism was pretty high. Some incredibly rude people called me “Rexy,” so Fox would call me “Chubs” in protest. He got in loads of trouble because the perceptive teachers of Bodhi Beach High assumed I was, in fact, anorexic and Fox was bullying me. Since the actual name-callers were girls, that slipped right under their radar. Fox, however, was loud and proud about it. It was a hell of a mess, but in the end, it was just my friend sticking up for me in his own poorly thought-out, controversial way, as per usual.

  “I’ve never been threatened with the official cane of the Hells Angels before,” he says, wiping the spit off his scrubs.

  “Go back to work,” I say with a giggle. “I’ll talk to you later.”

  “You coming to the barbecue this Saturday?” he calls after me. “It’s my birthday, you know.”

  “Wouldn’t miss it, old timer. Is the bonfire going to be legal this time?” I wink. Fox’s house is on the beach. It was his grandpa’s and he inherited it, the lucky prick.

  “Of course not!” He rethinks his volume. “I mean, yes. Yes, it is. Bring beer. Oh, and is your brother coming?” he asks.

  “You know, I haven’t talked to Cameron in a few. Seems like he’s been a little incommunicado, according to my mom. I don’t see how he’d miss it though.”

  Fox nods. “Well, I hope he can make it! Tell him to come in drag because I want to motorboat him again. I don’t know where he got those falsies, but they were super comfortable to stick my face in.”

  I perform the expected eye-roll followed by an about-face toward Dr. Beaufort’s office. “See you then, perv,” I call.

  “Takes one to know one!”

  After a more in-depth conversation with Dr. B, I’m not very good anymore. I may only have one good year of fertility if I want to conceive a baby without assistance. Or I could have five years, maybe more, but even that’s hard to say. Menopause is not only hard to predict, but makes my cycle erratic, which heavily lends to the odds against me. I thought I wanted kids but I’m hella single at present. It’s been eight months since I dumped Brett, and after that debacle, the “do I want kids” question is, well, questionable. With my new and the-opposite-of-improved timeline, I’m forced to address an issue I should have had more than a decade to consider.

  Freezing some eggs is supposedly a legit option as I’m otherwise healthy and a good candidate for it. “But I wouldn’t wait,” Dr. B had said, stressing the point that I might not have very long to decide. “Think about it. You have a little time, but don’t think too long. Before you know it, it
could be too late.”

  I told her I didn’t have to think. I don’t have tens of thousands of dollars to plunk down on iced egg-os. Thanks to Brett’s bullshit and my stupid trusting heart, I loaned him the money to start his deejay business. I blame blind lust.

  I ended up charging a bunch of stuff, which the imbecile sold for cash to blow at the bookie’s. Turned out, he didn’t want to start a business, just further a secret gambling habit. My credit took a nosedive along with our relationship. I’m still wading out of the debt he helped create and I have no money left to take out a hit. Where’s the justice?

  I have my grandma’s 1967 Mustang convertible that’s worth a little money, but she’s not all original or in the greatest shape. I’d also need much deeper, unindebted pockets to pay for the work needed to make her a showstopper. I can’t imagine parting with it to pay shit off for my stupidity.

  With all this on my shoulders, I sit in my not-very-cherry classic Mustang convertible in the parking garage and cry. And cry. And cry until I’m thoroughly dehydrated and have a mark from the steering wheel on my forehead. The setting sun is piercing directly through the structure when I come up for air.

  It’s well past rush hour, and there shouldn’t be much in the way of gridlock left on the 405. So there’s that.

  Blowing off work the next couple of days is not my intention, but I can’t seem to get my ass to separate from my couch. I feel alone and unfairly punished. Maybe punished is a strong word, but I’m stuck in the most juvenile “not fair” type of mindset. Privileges have been taken away without offense and the big bad in this case is not my parents, not my teachers, but my own damn body. I want comfort. I want to curl up and forget.

  I miss my Ripley-boy, the silver tabby I’d rescued just before I moved out for college. Mom insisted I take him with me. Just spit-balling here, but I think it was because she and Dad were in the midst of a crappy divorce, but I could be wrong. He was an amazing cat; chubby, talkative, lazy, loved to take naps with me. His purr-motor in my ear would be the best medicine.

  Since I no longer have him to comfort me, I have to talk myself out of several boxes of old-school powdered mac and cheese. It’s “made with real cheese.” In other words, chemical cheese. You know, the good stuff. I only manage to resist two of the four boxes currently stocked in my cabinet. I make the two boxes at once and eat it out of the pan. Hey, I’m a strong woman and all, but I’m not perfect. I have needs. And apparently some serious adult-type decisions to make, or at least consider.